friended

It's been a pretty boring week. Boring weeks lead to boring activities to pass the time. I was looking at my profile pictures, reading the comments, see who liked what, when I came across a old picture of me. I have been over my pictures so many times I can recite the comments in my sleep. But this time something was different.

A small picture appeared next to an old comment left by Cody. If you know the story of Cody then you should also know that after I convinced him to not be my friend anymore he blocked me. So for three years there has been that little FB guy next to his comment.

I clicked on the link to his name just to see if it was a mistake. Nope no mistake, he un-blocked me.

Now it's been three years. I am totally a different person now then I was then. But now that he wanted to opened up the communication with me again, suddenly I felt like that 19 year old girl again.
I HATE that 19 year old girl.

So then I texted Lauraj and she tells me oh yeah Cody is turning his life around again. And he is looking for something familiar to cling onto again... Well thanks for telling me exactly what old Cathy likes to hear. WHAT!? There's someone of the opposite sex who needs my help!? Well okay let me throw my entire life away to help him! DUH-DUH-DUH DUUUUHHHH!!! You think after 6 years of being my best friend the woman would know what NOT to say.

So I spent 15 minutes staring at his FB page. Internally struggling once again wither or not to friend him.
I thought about how awful the past two years have been with Bryan. About the times I wished Cody would do what he promised and save me from this man. This man who completely destroyed who I was.
He never showed up.
I never heard a whisper, or saw a glimpse of this guy who told me even if I didn't want him in my lief he was there for me.
I was alone again.

The thing about me now is that I am not old Cathy. Bryan took old Cathy and stomped all over her, and then ripped her down over and over and over.
I'm not the girls anymore.
I didn't click the add as friend button.
I don't care if Cody needs some one, I needed someone and he wasn't there for me.
I'm not mad at Cody, I'm not still in love with him. I'm just not going to take a step back into the shittiest 4 years of my life.
Cody started something, Bryan brought out the worst in it, and I'm stopping it.

Hi my name is Cathy Coppin, and I am happy. For the first time in years, and I wont let anyone Cody or not take that away from me.
I hope Cody's life work out for him. But I'm not going to take the chance and see if he really has changed. Because it doesn't matter.

12.Some pictures you love

Well I love pictures so this could be a long one. So instead of showing you a bunch of random photos that are cute, I'm going to feature some of my favorite photographers!! Spread the Photography Love!!!

My photo. Lets face it you've all seen this before, but this photo remains a favorite.

 

This Photo was taken by Peter Fiorino. He was in my first year classes. Great guy, lots of fun, fantastic photos. Once his site is finished you can see Peters work here ... 

FRESHphotography this photographer is based out of BC but I have totally fallen in love with her photos! you can find FRESHphotography here ... 

Sarah Novak aka the big sister of Bryan is one of my favorite photographers. Or maybe it's just her subject matter I love! either way you can find Sarah Novak here...

Ruthless Photos is an Australian based photographer, she does animal photography. Mostly dog, love her stuff love those puppies! You can find Ruthless Photos here ... 

Bobbi-Joe Grunewald Photography aka my cousin! I have always loved Bobbi's work (this one is particular, as this cutie belongs to Kendra . And has the most crazy blue eyes!) You can find Bobbi here ... 

This Beloved Life by Danielle is based out of Red Deer, I love her stuff and I also love her website layout (thats the design nerd in me) You can find This Beloved Life here ... 

Now I don't know if Andre Dupuis of Departures counts as a photographer, but seriously this man has got some talent!Read about Andre's travels, and his photography here.

Last but not least, my photography partner in crime, KC Roberts. Case and I share a common love (other than his wife/my cousin) we both love taking photos. You can see KC's work here (if he ever updates it!) ... 

11. Goals

It's very fitting that 2 days before I leave the topic is goals. Hum goals, well up until about a month ago my only goal was to survive. Now life is more optimistic, and since I am about to start a new chapter in my life I think writing some goals is just about right.

1. Men. My first goal is to find a balance. I've never really been concerned about finding the one, until a guy casts me a tidbit of attention. Then suddenly my calm, cool, collected self, becomes a anxious, jealous wreck. My first goal as a college graduate, is to remain cool, calm and collected until I find someone who is actually worth the stress. But then if he's worth it I dont think there will be a need for Cathy psycho-woman to emerge.

2. Second goal, get a car. Before the beginning of the summer. It's literally been 3 years since I first said, "I'm saving up for a car!" Some car I should have by now. Yeah, I think my wardrobe can take a hit until I can afford a little rust bucket and the insurance for it.

3. One thing that I should do a lot more is give more energy to those who give it back. Stephanie and Stephen, Tiffany and Casey, Zach, Jessica McCrea. That's just the short list. No more energy goes to the Bryans of the world.

4. SAVE MONEY! Like seriously why is this so hard to do! I would like to save $2000 this year. For no planed reason, other than having a surplus of $2000.

5. Okay I know realistically this is a lot of money saved but I will leave North America this year. I don't know where, or how long. BUT this year I will finally conquer one of my life long dreams and step foot in a different continent.

6. Be stable. I would like to feel stable for once this year. I want to get an apartment and not know in one year I'll be moving. I want to decorate it, make it my own. I want to buy things and not think "actually why get this, it's just going to be a pain in the ass to move." And who knows maybe get a dog!

7. I want a good job, in my field. That I make over $10,000 a year at.

10. What you believe

Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not. -Dr. Seuss-
Be the change you want to see in the world.
That's what I believe.

9. Favorite TV shows

Okay this is a fun one. I have about a hundred favorite shows, like I said earlier I get a little TV obsessed,  probably because my life in general is really dull. Okay so here they are, my current favorite TV shows!

I just started watching Prison Break, so far so good. Though it doesn't have the addictive quality the rest of my shows have had on me.

This is the first season of the Apprentice that I have actually watched. But you gotta love watching classic celebs go head to head....

 I could talk about Departures forever! or say log on to CityTV's website and see for your self why I love this show!

 Who doesn't love Glee? It's a whole hour of good songs, and good looking men!

 This show is my 2nd all time favorite show! I mean come on....It's LEGN...wait for it....DARY!

 My life as Liz is an MTV show about a girl just out of high school, surviving New York, heart break, and life with out her Nerd Herd. It's kind of "the Hills" esk. As it's her actual life (but I'm pretty sure most of it is scripted) Regardless Liz reminds me of my BFF Laura, and well is just addicting!

 Even though I lost the bad guy, I still watch Survivor. No decision on wither I'll watch once Rob is gone... But I can't deny Boston Rob my weekly love.

I LOVE TEEN MOM. I'm a bit of a reality TV junkie. But this season is just as good as the last. And the Babies are So CUTE!

 Number one all time favorite TV show. I'm not a big Vampire fan, but seriously there's something appealing about these Vampires.....especially Eric Northman. Can't wait for season four to start!

8. Put your iPod on shuffle, first ten songs

So you want to know what songs will come up on my iPod humm? Well brace yourself....

1. Don't Panic - Coldplay
2. Get Crazy - LMFAO
3. The Fixer- Pearl Jam
4. Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus
5. Drown- Three Days Grace
6.Never Leave Lonely Alone - Ben Harper
7. Don't Rush - Teagan and Sarah
8. That's Incentive - Death Cab for Cutie
9. Second Go - Lights
10. Hard to Concentrate - Red Hot Chili Peppers

There you have it. The first ten songs that come up on my iPod.

7. Favourite movies

Okay so my list of favourite movies is always in the works. It changes from day-to-day, but there has always been three movies that stay on top! So here they are....







There you have it, my top three favourite movies of all time!

6. A song that makes you cry

There has never been in the history of music that I heard (while not in an extremely irrational emotional state) that has made me cry. BUT I am going to share a lovely song with you all. Actually I am going to share three, because I can. This is my blog get over it.





Okay so this one in no way makes me cry but I just really love it!

5. Things that make you happy

Oh man this is going to be a good one. Things that make me happy, here we go! Hold on to you socks guys cuz there's a TON that makes me happy.

Overly attractive vampires

Legen.........dary TV shows

 Cute babies! Actually only this baby and his Mommy.

 Kaleb!

 Pictures of Asland.

 Cute kiss pictures.

 Audrey Hepburn everything

 Ed Westwick.

 Blaire Waldorf

 When Chuck Bass and Blair Waldorf kiss.

 Hedgehogs (I mean really they are cute)

 Comic book art.

 This beautiful man. (Aaron Johnson)

 Looking at Jacob Hoggard (still, I haven't out grown him!)

 Sex and the City, and Carrie Bradshaw in general.

 Dogs in wigs.

 Ok so he doesn't make me happy... let is swoon and emotion?

 Peonies my favorite flower.

 These two strapping young men. And their travels.

Corgis, look at this puppy!!! Look at his short, mini legs!

 OH MY GOD... BUNNIES!

And last but not least anything that has Seth Rogan in it. What would I do if this guy got me pregnant? REJOICE! 

There you have it, the things in life that just make me happy (please note this isn't my serious list. Except for the sexy vampires, Shia LeBoef and Seth Rogan. I don't joke about attractive men.)