It's funny how things pass.
I thought my 21 year old problems would be the end of me.
Now I see that my 21 year old problems are just the sand paper of my life.
lessons learned, egos put aside, and hard feeling buried for good, this has been an ok year.
I mean yes it was pretty shitty. But I learned some life lessons.
I learned how to fall in love, and to fall out of it.
I learned how to work at relationships, I learned the value of friendships.
I learned that sometimes things are hard. That's just the way it is.
And any one who thinks life is always suppose to be up, is completely stupid. Because with out the downs there would be no ups.
I learned that people often don't mean to hurt you. But they do because they are just human.
I've learned that the little things, like spending an hour with the cutest baby on earth, or taking the dogs for a walk, can mean more than the big things.
I've learned that forgiveness is really freeing.
I've learned that you can follow you heart, or you can follow your head, it doesn't matter down both paths there will be something unexpected.
Nothing is fair, and watching thing be handed to those around you is often discouraging. But earning what you have, and what you want is really the best feeling.
I have learned that often what looks like love, is usually two lonely people hoping to find love. And that just because you want to meet the love of your life doesn't mean they are right in front of your eyes. But I still believe it's worth the wait.
I'm 50/50 on wither I think psychics are full of shit or the tellers of my future. It's been about 4 months and love hasn't happened......and she said it was right around the corner. But then again that corner could have been pretty far away.
I guess looking back this year hasn't been all that bad. I've had people around me who love, value, respect, and admire me always. And I guess even when you hope for so much more, that's all you can really ask for. And that's all you really need.
Happy new year guys. Here's to your family's, your happiness, and your dreams coming true.
