This may or may not come as a total shock.
But after much thought, and even more prayer, I have decided what is to happen next in my life.
As of April first, I will leave the big city behind, and finished what I started, In the bridge.
First let me take a second to thank you who have helped me since I first left the bridge. And especially T, who not only helped me, but pulled me out of a bad situation.
I in the past 5 month have become the person who I wanted to be. The girl who you saved is completely gone. And I owe it all to you guys. I needed so badly to get out of there. And the big city was the perfect place to come. Here I learned how to cook real food, and how to keep my dishes washed ALWAYS, and how to make my bed every morning. Here I learned how to be part of a family, and how not to rely Solly on a bunch of 19 year olds'. Here I learned how to be brave at 11 o'clock at night in down town, and how to be brave at 11 o'clock in the morning when things just aren't going great. Here I learned how I just can't do it alone. here I learned how to be who I am, and how to get over Cody. I learned how to open my heart and be loved. And how to give love. Here is where I grew up and stopped being a teenager. So thank you for being here to hold my hand, to kick my butt, and to give me that shoulder to cry on. All of you are why I'm ready to go back, and start my life again.
It will be different this time. This time I go armed. I won't be hanging out with Cody, I won't be living with Laura. I won't be working 7 days a week, and I wont be spending my free time saving any body.
I will go to Institute once a week. I will Go to Church every week. I will spend a few nights with Laura, and Matea, and Liz and Kenny! I will work a job I love. and I will save up money to payoff my Loan. I will live with a bunch of strong girls, and I will remember my Heavenly father. I will start at the college in the fall, and soon go to the University. I will Challenge myself, and push myself.
I know that some of you may think this is a bad idea. I wish you could see the fire in my eyes. I have never been so ready for something. Heavenly Father thinks it's the right thing, so if you don't like it take it up with him!
Thank you all of you.